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a Quan Yin messenger
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I
used to have a strong, passionate nature, yet by Master's and God's arrangement,
I joined the monastic order and pursued spiritual practice. Ten years have flown
by since then. Meanwhile, I have been able to abide by the monastic rules and
live up to my expectations. Now that I think back, it all seems incredible.
It invokes in me nothing less than the deepest admiration for Master's successful
education and meticulous protection of us. Without Her, I could not have safely
overcome the countless struggles and trials in my life over the years.
For example, I recall
a Truth-sharing event overseas where we had a shortage of staff workers. As
a result, a sister initiate and I often worked together until midnight. Perhaps
it was a mutual interest or aspiration between us that led to mutual appreciation.
We enjoyed each other's company and became very close, as though we were from
the same family. Whenever I asked her for help, she would do her best to do
what she could. Later, she would, on her own initiative, offer to help without
my having to ask her. And this touched me deeply.
One day, I became aware
that something was not quite right. Quickly I reminded myself that I was Master's
monastic disciple and that I should be careful in body, speech and thought.
However, things did not improve. Improper thoughts often arose in my mind. At
this time, I thought of Manjusri Bodhisattva's wisdom sword that Master had
once mentioned. I raised this sword but did not have the strength to bring it
down. Without hesitation, I asked the inner Master for help. It worked. Not
long after, an incident occurred where this sister initiate reprimanded me,
which was very unlike her usual self. I immediately knew that Manjusri's sword
had done its work. It had awakened me, pushing me out of the illusion before
I got sucked deeply into it .
Master has said that
there is nothing wrong with getting married. Even among masters, some are married,
like Kabir and Marpa (Milarepa's master), who practiced together with their
wives. However, Master has also shown me clearly that most ordinary married
folks become immersed in material enjoyment and fettered in their little world
of love. With only the other party in their hearts, they are unable to feel
an indiscriminate love for all sentient beings. Often, they forget why they
are here. They forget God. They forget their Master and the Truth. Eventually,
they give up the noble ideal of a monastic life. They return to the mundane
world to toil busily for their loved ones and families and earn their three
meals a day, and are unable to complete their aspiration of delivering sentient
beings. Such situations are unfortunate and regrettable.
During the past ten
years, I have gone on from the forced control and suppression of the emotions
and desires of my earlier days to an elevated consciousness, and now to a change
in my appreciation of beauty, of beautiful people and things. How joyful and
relaxing it is to enjoy them as the blooming flowers by the roadside! I often
remember the warning in Taoist practice - cut the attachments as you notice
them. More than that, we should protect ourselves against possible trouble,
avoid creating improper situations for ourselves. However, if nothing works,
the one last option is to seek Master's help. She will very willingly lend us
Manjusri's wisdom sword and help us cut off all our attachments and troubles.
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