My
wife and I had always been a happy couple from the time we were young.
We were a family that all our relatives and neighbors admired. But
several years ago, my wife received the book, The Key of Immediate
Enlightenment, from a sister initiate and our lives began to change.
After reading the book, she decided to follow Master Ching Hai on
the spiritual path and hoped that I would do the same. Although I
could accept part of Master's teachings, I did not believe in God
and the concept of a soul and could not accept spiritual practice
or a vegetarian diet because I was a materialist. I could not renounce
this world and felt that being a vegan would prevent me from having
normal relationships with friends and relatives. This was a matter
of principle. Thus, the greatest disharmony that my wife and I had
ever experienced arose in our married life.
I
thought of many ways to prevent my wife from getting initiated. I
even spent tens of thousands of RMB (Chinese currency) on sightseeing
tours around the country, hoping that she would give up the idea of
spiritual practice. But this method proved useless. Eventually we
made a compromise and agreed that she could practice the Convenient
Method, which resulted in her missing an opportunity for initiation.
I did not suspect then that she would become dissatisfied with the
Convenient Method and increasingly anxious for initiation. As she
became more and more earnest about her wish to be initiated, the conflict
between us grew more serious as well. During that time, I experienced
an anguish that I had never before felt in my life. I thought about
divorce, but was afraid to hurt my wife and lose her because I loved
her so much. The more I hindered her spiritual practice, the more
she suffered, and the more hatred filled my heart. I hated her attachment
to the Quan Yin Method, and I hated the sister who had given her the
book, blaming her for bringing discord into our lives.
Although
I used every way I could to prevent her from doing so, my wife still
received initiation in Korea without my knowledge. When I recall my
behavior during that time, I find myself to have been absolutely ridiculous:
an ordinary man wanting to fight God's power. It was like an insect
trying to stop a car. After my wife returned from Korea, I felt calmer
and more at peace. I began to introspect on my behavior and, without
questioning, followed her in maintaining a pure vegetarian diet, and
renounced alcohol as well. Of course, all this must be attributed
to Master's immense love. However, I still could not join my wife
on the spiritual path.
Then
in June, 2002, my wife bought two paintings by Master-"The Stone
Cave" and "Hope." And within a week of her purchases,
on consecutive nights I unexpectedly dreamt of Master taking me to
beautiful realms. The most unforgettable memory was of Master taking
me to a majestic hall, where there were only pillars but no roof.
Brilliant golden light shone everywhere, and it was difficult to describe
how splendid it was. Master talked to me like an old friend, saying
that I should be open-minded and detached. She said that everything
in life is our own choice and that we should live the way we want.
On hearing this, I became very happy, thinking that Master understood
me and was granting me freedom.
A
few days later, I dreamed of Master taking me through a black hole
in the universe where countless shining stars flew past us. I felt
that we were moving many times faster than the stars. When passing
through the middle of the black hole, I saw a light like that in the
painting "The Stone Cave," followed by dazzlingly white
light. My feelings at the time cannot be expressed in human language.
After
that, I started to study Master's teachings very carefully and understood
deeply that everything Master says is true! Then I began to practice
the Convenient Method and have had great experiences during meditation.
Master often takes me to various beautiful realms and I now understand
what real happiness is. My hatred toward my wife has changed into
love, and we can find things to discuss about Master's teachings every
day. I am truly grateful to Master for giving me a happier family.
Master
conveyed power and wisdom through Her paintings, changing my beliefs
completely so that I realize the omnipresence of the Master power!
I am now eager to receive Master's initiation as soon as possible.
