For
a long time before my initiation I had longed to know God. And when
I saw all kinds of strange phenomena occurring in the world, my longing
became more intense. Since meeting Master, I have had an indescribable
and even stronger yearning for Master's infinite love and a desire
to understand God better.
On
the disaster-relief trip, we initiates went to India theoretically
to serve and to "give" to others, but in reality, we were
the ones at the receiving end.
During
the five-day 2002 Christmas retreat in Florida, Master patiently answered
my question about such loving service. She said that when She serves
children or takes care of animals, She feels a double sense of happiness:
One is from within in Herself, and the other is transferred from those
She serves. Through Master's loving answer, I came to realize that
for most of my life I had been doing things with my mind, and so I
became easily exhausted over the "endless" work I had to
accomplish. Although I then discovered where the problem was, I still
felt some regrets because I did not know all about the services offered
by my local center and had little chance to experience the direct
and simple opportunities for spiritual growth available there. Amazingly,
this subtle feeling and wish in my heart, which I had not even perceived
myself, was taken care of by Master and realized one year later while
I was in India.
Throughout
the 40-day disaster-relief project in Rajasthan, the initiate volunteers
rushed back and forth, overcoming countless difficulties before we
finally delivered the food supplies purchased by the Supreme Master
Ching Hai relief team to the starving drought victims. Also, we witnessed
the completion of a reservoir and several wells, and the initiation
of some local people by a Quan Yin messenger. During this process,
I came to truly understand how God meticulously cares for Hiers children,
and was overwhelmed by the vastness of divine love. Even though this
activity was but a mere particle in the span of universal history,
I sincerely believe that the seeds of love were planted deep in the
souls of the Indian people through Master's compassionate concern.
Finally,
I wish to offer my most profound gratitude to Master with these lines:
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Without
You, I would not have known of the existence of God;
The
mysterious God reveals Hiers presence because of You;
Your love benefits everything and reaches
all beings;
Thanks to You, I know that God really
exists!
(Written
in India)
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