Hey, Dad,
Haven’t talked to you in a while. I want to know what’s
happening in Austin and if you’re OK. You probably know that I’m
going to Egypt this Friday but you didn’t know that I just came
back from my state swimming tournament and placed fifth in the 100 yard
breaststroke. I hope you can send Your Master my gratitude since She
helped when I most needed it. I can’t talk too much now but I’ll
see if I can send you another more detailed e-mail tomorrow. Bye, I
love you.
Dad,
Now that I have time to talk, I’ll tell you the story of exactly
how your Master helped me at my state swimming championships. I was
at the championships and since over the past two years I’ve been
doing pretty poorly, I was nervous but also confident since I was placed
very high up and expected to win points. Unfortunately, however, in
all of my races I did just a little bit below my expectations. I was
very angry about this since some of the people whom I used to beat were
beating me, especially a little kid that I used to beat easily, and
I was always getting places like 9 or 10 in my races, and each time
this happened to me, I was very angry. On the third and last day I was
very tired since I had swum the most of any swimmer that day and in
the evening I was beaten by another kid by barely half a second.
At that point I just decided that
all my anger has not helping me and I must think about my race. I thought
I had warmed up exactly the way I was supposed to, but unfortunately
I missed the evening warm-ups on both the second and third days so I
was not well prepared. I was expected to do poorly by both my coach
and myself, but then after I thought of my race and warmed up during
the ten minute break I decided to let patience, training and the wisdom
of God and Master Ching Hai take over me and I prayed to Master Ching
Hai and said, “Master if I’m truly to fail as a swimmer
and drop beyond my place then You shall reveal to me my absolute failure
and let me pass on with my life and give me the courage to withstand
my humiliation, but if I’m not going to lose then I beg You to
give me strength through my upcoming challenge. This is very important
to me, and I trained harder than any of those people next to me, and
I know that since my coach told me please don’t let all of my
hard effort and pain go to waste. This means so much to me that I have
never felt like this before, not even when I’m most angry. Help
me, Master Ching Hai.”
And during the race
I felt calm and peaceful as I have never felt before. I still felt tiredness
and pain but it’s like something told me to forget the pain and
concentrate on my work since I had worked hard all summer long to achieve
this, and when I finished I did better than I ever have in that event.
I got fifth place at the state championships even when I was tired and
not warmed up going into the race. I know that none of the other swimmers
were as tired as I was because some of them purposely cancelled another
event to swim well in this one, the 100 yard breaststroke, and none
but me swam the longer events. I thank Master Ching Hai for Her gift
for She has helped me in a matter of great importance to me. When I
swam it was as if the Divine were personally cheering my race. I am
glad I had Master Ching Hai.
Thank You, dad and Master. I love You. Good bye to both of You.