Q: 
          Although I meditate diligently, I’ve 
          only seen the Light once. If I wish to see the Light, then I'm attached 
          to an outcome. But if I don't wish to see the Light, does that mean 
          I won’t progress spiritually?  
        M: 
          No, you can wish to see the Light, but don’t demand it, saying, “I 
          have to see it every day, I have to see it every time,” and so on. 
          You’re doing very fine for a beginner. You're doing wonderfully. 
          So just continue in a relaxed and loving manner. 
        All of us would like to see the Light every day. 
          But we’ve been conditioned not to be able to see God. A lot of people 
          out there believe in God, but if God appeared to them in any form, they’d 
          be startled or wouldn’t believe it or think it was a devil's trick 
          or an illusion. So since our youth, we’ve been conditioned and brainwashed 
          into believing that we can’t see God or that God is something we 
          can never touch. We know God is there, but we believe that no one is 
          able to see Hirm. So, when we meditate now—even though at the time 
          of initiation we got immediate enlightenment, a glimpse of God in the 
          form of Light or Sound or even some physical manifestation in the inner 
          vision so that we can connect with God in the way we expect to—our 
          mind still battles all the time, thinking, “It's not real.” 
        And that’s the reason for our retarded progress. 
          It's not that we aren’t diligent. It’s just that our brain has 
          been too bombarded with fake, false, negative information. So now we 
          have to do more meditation all the time in order to recondition our 
          minds to accept it. And then the believing and non-believing energies 
          won’t contradict each other so we’ll be more relaxed and enjoy 
          visions of God more often. 

      
       
        Q: Is 
          there no correlation between our spiritual level and the time we put 
          into spiritual practice? Why don’t I experience the Light and Sound 
          from a high spiritual level after having practiced for eleven years? 
          Dear Master, would You please tell me what my problem is? Please advise 
          me. Thank You, Master. 
        M: I 
          think you’re expecting all the time; that's why. You interfere with 
          your spiritual practice through your intellectual attitude of expectation. 
          For example, “OK, if I meditate for one year, I should go to the 
          first level; if I meditate for two years, I’ll go to the second level; 
          if I meditate for three years, I’ll go to the third level,” etc. 
          
        It doesn’t work like that. God is not to be 
          dictated to the way the mind wants. Because whatever you're thinking 
          and comparing with right now is the mind working; it’s the working 
          of the illusion of Maya, not the real God. So sometimes because you 
          think too much with your mind, you hinder your own progress. 
        Just be like a child. Don’t calculate too 
          much; don’t do it like a business, like, “OK, I’ve meditated 
          for ten years so I should get this and that.” We’re not in something 
          like an enterprise. We should just do it like a child without expecting 
          anything. The parent will know how to reward us. 
        Relax, and then you’ll enjoy it more. (Applause) 
          We’re so much in the habit of expecting things to go our way that 
          in the family we ask the kids to do this and that according to our liking. 
          And we ask our husband or wife to do this and that according to our 
          opinion. And then we go outside and ask our friends and associates to 
          do this and that according to our ideas. And if we’re supposed to 
          be in a superior position, like a supervisor on the job, or a manager 
          or a boss, then of course we’re used to telling everyone what to 
          do. 
        And that's why we think spiritual practice should 
          go the same way, but it doesn’t. As long as we still work with our 
          brain, calculating and doing things like that, it will never work. So 
          relax, be like a kid; don't look forward to what will happen next; just 
          don't know. And then it will come. (Applause) Kids never know what’s 
          happening next. Their parents arrange everything for them. 